That is too serious for you? Have you ever been in such an establishment called, school? Now that's very serious business.
I think the reason that I don't partake in malicious activities is that I strive to be contrary to the popular. After all, I cannot count the number of times I've been begged by my party not to kill them, to which I always reply, "You sillyface, I never have and I never will kill anyone." When I act, I consider the feelings of the other person always above my own petty selfish desires. When someone's being unbearable to me yes, the thought crosses my mind that I could take one step forward and empty my P90c into their pretty armored chest. Do I take the next logical step and click, swap modes to burst, target, and double/tripleburst? Most assuredly not! There are a whole plethora of reasons why I do not and I will list the most pertinent of them here!I know what it feels like to be slaughtered in the most horrible ways and I would not inflict that on someone undeserving.For even those who deserve I show unshakable willpower. Insult me, kill me, hurt me all you want. You will not shake me from my pacifistic ways.I don't want to waste their valuable time, the time they've spent getting where they are, getting the armor, weapons, and ammo that they have.If in a guarded town, I certainly don't want to waste my own time either!Most importantly, I don't want to sadden or demoralize them. I represent something that newbies can trust. What kind of sick person would I be to betray that kind of trust?FOnline is a true reflection of the deviance and hatred in the world that we inhabit, as it is a mental extension of it. I act here as I do in the real world. With nothing but love and respect for those who deserve it. And I even retain my good will and concern for those who most would say perhaps are undeserving of it. But here, you can't reach across the table and slap them in the face, and that gives trolls and do-badders even more incentive to act to their most base accordances, and makes being kind and sweet far more challenging. It's easy to take up a minigun and run into town to one-hex someone you really don't like. I challenge you instead to have a logical, respectful debate with them. Sometimes even I fail at this, as the discussions tend to get hyperpersonal and someone always brings a grease gun to a microphone fight but that is where you have done basically all you can do. Most people are convinced that their way is the right way and the only way, delusional and assuredly arrogant. Challenge them at a game they know not how to play and you will find that even if you fail this time, or next time, maybe, just maybe, if you can make a difference in one person's life, then it was all worth it in the end.
How do I sleep?I count bluesuits until I fall asleep like a baby.